Today was pretty weird. My mind was all over the place every song I listened to put me in a different mood a form of uncontentious escapism to deal with what I have been uh obsessing for the lack of a better term over maybe. I don't know why I went to school today every class was pretty much a free. At lunch Nigel and I went for some crack pizza on the way I heard a womans voice say Hi I turned to look and seen like some kind of spirit it kind of looked like her. I thought about what the hell dogs are trying to say when they bark at you when you walk past them? On the way back I felt like something was fallowing me I think I'm losing it ~_~. When I got home I got in a fight with a moth I punched it and it fell down and then got up and started to fly around again I punched it and it fell down and I stepped on it. =\ I went on an adventure with my for wheeler and a trailer load of horse shit. The suicide sledding road was covered with ice so I slid most of the way down the plow dropped for some reason and I almost ate shit. Some how I tipped the trailer and broke it good I set it upright and fixed with with 4 bails of hay and a rope and went home. Supposed snow storm tomorrow ruined my plan to see smokin aces don't know whether to be mad or not no smokin aces but lots of snow..

Random song lyrics of they day: This demon cannot be hushed. These cowards will all be crushed. No longer will I hide from them. My ways are set in stone. Nobody Has ever known me. A life truly spent alone. Your true definition of me. Your idea that I'm real. All of this is an illusion. Even through you can feel Blood Lust - Chimaira

Random quote of the day: Shining jewels in her crown like drops of my sacrificial blood and I was left all alone. Without all hope with wounds that never step aside. Which way to go, I do not know. What to believe don't care just pain and misery. Nothing to make me feel alive. Every time I hear her voice it burns like a thousand flames inside. Truth and Deceit – Fate/Blood Stained

You Are 87% Borderline

It seems like you have borderline personality disorder. Seriously consider seeking help, even if you think you don't need it.

Do You Have a Borderline Personality?

Your Love Type: INFJ

The Protector In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship. For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls. Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in. However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself. Best matches: ENTP and ENFP

What's Your Love Type?

Most Sunday's I would sleep until1-2 pm but not today because TMC killing fields is back online. When I joined up Rento was was there ready to give me hell about adding him to the random mass conversation. We played for about 2 hours in that time he inquired about joining I told him it was fine with me but he should ask Neil to so we played some more until Neil came online in then end he is now a member of TMC. I was between soldat and DOA until 8 when Tenjho tenge came on Alma recommended I watch it so I did and I loved it tho I found it a tad... depressing for the lack of a better term at times. I have the feeling I will be buying a Maya PVC in the near future. Laying in bed I got the over powering urge to tell a certain someone something... Maybe some soldat will take my mind off of it =D or some leet juice. Feeling extremely angsty at the moment. Enesce is a shitty company run by tar tars.

You Are 32% Control Freak

You have achieved the perfect balance of control and letting go. You tend to roll with whatever life brings, but you never get complacent.

Are You A Control Freak?

Random quote of the day "Im tired of this faggots 4 shot cunt cannon" Rento

Stand and fight! Join the light! Into the battle with power and might. Sound the guns!Raise the cannons of war. With the north star to guide us we ride on the sky.Blazing up through the heavens like eagles we fly and the horsemen shall come.They will judge all your lives.Revelations will now be unveiled No more hope of freedom.Our dreams are washed away. The second age is coming It's the dawn of a new day. Judgment stands before us. The second king will rise. Our swords will shine with honor. Hatred fills the sky! - Revelations Dragon Force

SOLDAT!

Today was pretty shitty I woke up at 10 to the sound of my cousins baby crying at times like this I regret selling my katana =(. I checked on the status of the soldat server and went back to bed after finding out the company fucked up the order and had to fix it I went back to bed around 2 and didn't get up until 6:30. I played this imaginary realm flash game where I had to make chocolate covered strawberries it made me hungry I didn't have any strawberries or chocolate but I did have strawberries pie and chocolate cake so I made that my only meal of the day. I was so board I RPed for an hour and managed to get my dragon character killed =\. Alma invited me into a mass conversation and told me to add some one so I added rento he was away but I knew he would flip out when he came back and he did by flooding and making everyone freeze up. After that the soldat server was ready to go. I made a play list and greened up for the first time in almost 2 months about 5 miniutes into the game twisty joined! It was definiatly some of the best soldat I have ever played twisty managed to grow a grenade into my ass =\ Got a multi kill with the saw. Me and neil played some corpse tennis with a SPAS.

You Should Paint Your Room Purple

Sophisticated and exotic, purple can also be a deeply comforting color. Your purple room will inspire you to trust yourself more and go with your intuition. Purple has also been known to facilitate healing and a feeling of protection.

What Color Should You Paint Your Room?

Purple<33

Random quote of the day 'You know your on PCP WHEN all the forks are in the dishwasher" TehNeil

Random song lyrics of then day Fucking coward, does it make you feel big and strong to watch her cry out and bleed? See the fear in her eyes, won't you kill the weakness in yours. Motherfucker, vengeance comes soon. You won't stand in front of me. I'll avenge my family. Shadow Walker - Bleeding Through

Lawl lawl lawl

Ha ha ha Josh is going to fail fucking his classes and graduate next year when he is 20 because he is a fucking idiot can't get enough sleep act,function,work like normal people. Tonight he is stuffing his face with emo cake playing jippii golf and listening to Dragon Force the highlight of fucking week week FFS!.

You Don't Get Enough Sleep

You definitely don't get enough sleep, and it's turning you into a mental zombie! You need to get more sleep, starting tonight if possible. Avoid caffeine, keep a regular bedtime, don't watch TV before bed, and sleep in complete darkness.

Do You Get Enough Sleep?

Random song lyrics of the day Silent screams and shattered dreams of what we left at seventeen. Still lost within the misery and pain that lies inside. Here alone the fight to breathe still searching for the truth to be. Blackened by the burning fire held deep inside my mind. Far beyond the lost horizon standing on the shore. Across the seas their hearts will bleed this life we're waiting for. Taste the steel in pain you kneel for glory we defend. Our fallen souls will rise to fight again. Body Breakdown – Dragon Force

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School sucked and nothing happened that is worth mentioning here. When I got home I put Feena in her box then in my crap sack and went for a walk to find a suitable place to take some pictures. Luckily the snow softened and reflected light making it a perfect setting to take pictures of this figure due to here shiny and difficult paint scheme. I was in a hurry to put her dress back on so please ignore the gap. =\

Scattered were my thoughts today. I spent the better part of the day in the woods it felt good to be separated from rest of the world even if it was for a short period of time. I seen some white furred rabbits trying to hide in the lack of snow their so stupid they don't even know that they don't blend in with their surroundings. A hour or two later I heard some rustling and turned to see what it was I froze where I stood two deer were about 50 feet away as close as I have ever been to one thats not dead. I held my breath and stared at them and the stared back I blinked and they were gone. How I envy animals at times all they have to worry about is surviving and procreating to keep the race going they don't have to worry about education or work relationships . They say that man is richest whose pleasures are cheapest animals must have it all. I have been thinking about a few people who I have alienated and ejected from my life with out reason. Perhaps I should get in touch with them again. I would not be surprised if they wanted nothing to do with me. I have been so preoccupied with my thoughts I forgot that 24 started tonight at first I thought it was going to suck until Jack tied to a chair bit a huge chunk out of a terrorists jugular killing him what a BAMF. I was watching the news and a story about some stupid woman that died after drinking a lethal amount of water in a radio station contest to win a Wii lawl... I think its safe to say my emo phase is over for the time being. Right now I feel nothing at all if only it would last for ever. Now for blog things .

You Are 84% Addicted to the Internet

The internet is your life - seriously. You spend so much time online, you should be a dot com millionaire!

Are You Addicted to the Internet?

Your Mind is NC-17 Rated

You're mind is so filthy... you should should be washing every part of you out with soap. If your thoughts can go dirty, they do. Almost everything is NC-17 to you!

Do You Have a Dirty Mind?

You Passed High School with an D

You have the brains of a high school graduate... at least!

Could You Pass High School?

Random song lyrics of the day So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
I've known it from the start all these good ideas will tear your brain apart.
Scared but you can follow me I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die. Bat Country - A7X

I got the crabs!?!

Well not really but I have been feeling rather cancerian lately so get all your emo jokes in now hopefuly It won't last long

This is the glyph of the moon; the moon was called Luna by the Romans, Selene and Artemis by the Greeks, and many other names in other mythologies. The moon represents the basic nature of your instincts and feelings. It has a nurturing influence that gives a deep impression and unique sensitivity within your mind. Intuitive people often have a strong moon placement. The moon has a direct influence on the mind which can be seen and felt in varying ways during each unique phase of the moon. This is particularly hard for those who are slightly unstable as the pull that the moon exerts on the tides are also felt in the brain fluids, making the effects of mental illness more enhanced. This is how the asylums came to call their inmates 'lunatics' as they were worse, or more dangerous, during the full moon.The moon also brings out the negative side of the cancerian nature which he or she must continually battle in order to overcome what could easily become a major flaw in character causing themselves and others much grief and pain.

The Moon Rules the Sign of Cancer
On the downside: Clannish and moody, attached to the past, a worrier and a clinger,
jealousy. Your good qualities include: Patient, sensitive, romantic, sociable, and maternal.
To identify your own personal feelings and put selfishness aside will be your lifes work.

The essence of the Cancerian personality can be boiled down to one word, sensitivity, when examined is a maze of winding roads that can lead anywhere and everywhere. These winding roads actually start at birth with the inborn instinct for survival and his or her utter dependence on the world, and the fear born of this dependency. While you have the innate desire to succeed gloriously in the world, you also have a resentment that grows with each instance of facing the harsh realities in living. Cancer will do well to learn to seek to protect rather than to seek protection as this will help you change your negative leanings into a positive attitude that will guide you through adversity.

Cancer will find their greatest security within the structure of a family setting due to the maternal side and the need to protect those in his or her charge. There is a homey feel about Cancer that draws the other signs; You have the ability to attune to the moods of others quickly or to change their moods to suit yours; you should not underestimate your effect on people and you should learn to use this ability wisely and not just for personal gain.

When Cancer does not attempt to control the personality then everyone around is in trouble as the negative Cancer is not a pleasant person to know. Negative Cancer becomes sulky when the desires are not met; the tendency is that the world owes them something and they will collect from everyone around, if this Cancer is denied, then that person will be dropped from his or her life, even if it is close family members. Negative Cancer finds it hard to hold a job and will quit at even imaginary slights. The negative Cancer will not take orders and is the most likely to wind up in the guardhouse if in the services.

You have a very sentimental nature, an incurable romantic, and you love nice things around you. You have a good memory, of both slights and favors done for you, you must learn to forgive and forget in order to ward off the dark depressions you find yourself falling into. In any case, you are the most emotional of all the signs and must learn to deal with them, but when you do, look out world--here comes positive Cancer to conquer and reap all they survey!Hard-shelled sympathetic Cancer

Who changes like a changeful season?

Holds fast then lets go without a reason?

Who is there to give adhesion?

To Cancer?

Cancer - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early onA total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knowsYou are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with Your negative traits: Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partnerYou tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficultIt's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down. Your ideal partner: Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeplyDreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a familyLoves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt! Your dating style: Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another. Your seduction style: Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac. Tips for the future: Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first. Best color to attract mate: Aqua Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's" Your Love Profile?

You are 87% Cancer

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Last night I had a dream I was attacked by poisonous pandas and infected with a poison that would kill me in 3 days alot happened that I don't remember.. The pandas were black green and purple in color.

Watched some things about serial killers in SOC today guy got a 4800 year prison sentence what an unnecessary number even Jesus wouldn't be able to server that.
Finished reading Beauty's Punishment.
Finished reading The Angel Experiment for the second time.
4 Hours of Oblivion

3:00 AM

4 Hours of Oblivion today.

Happy is the man who renounces everything which may bring a stain or burden upon his onscience.

Somethings are best left unsaid?

Theres no black and white just shades of gray.

Perhaps I shall spill the proverbial beans sometime soon.

Extreamly tired but can't sleep hope I get my sleeping pills soon.

You Are Heineken

You appreciate a good beer, but you're not a snob about it. You like your beer mild and easy to drink, so you can concentrate on being drunk. Overall, you're a friendly drunk who's likely to buy a whole round for your friends... many times. Sometimes you can be a bit boring when you drink. You may be prone to go on about topics no one cares about.

What's Your Beer Personality?

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy. You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself. Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in. People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal. You are most compatible with: A and AB Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

Random song lyrics of the day. Scorched Earth, rebirth Disinterred in the writhe of the lone survivor. Whose worth is worse than the curse of Sardonicus choking on his own saliva. Who shares the last laugh now. Dead wedded fates fulfill their vows? Foot in mouth of sacred cows. Face down in dust and poisoned ground...
Scorched Earth and Erotica – Cradle of Filth